Kamu cantik

You dont know you're beautiful

Frasa yang sering diungkapkan Directionerds. No offense. Tapi itulah topik kita hari ini. Pemudi zaman sekarang semakin tidak tahu. Tahu apa? Ana pun tak tahu, masih pemudi lah katakan. Stop, tak lawak. Mereka semakin tidak tahu bahawa mereka cantik. Iyekah?!

Allah itu cantik dan sukakan kecantikan. Maka, ciptaan-Nya juga cantik, cukup sempurna. Memanglah ada orang lebih cantik dari kamu. Dah rezeki dia lahir cantik. Kamu punya rezeki tak tengok pulak. Optimistic thinking please.

BUT

I'm warning you all girls aka kaum sejenis ana. Tak semua kecantikan patut kita tunjuk. Kalau boleh tak payah tunjuk langsung kita cantik. Biar suami kita terkejut sampai cakap "cantik juga bini aku rupanya". Sembunyikan kecantikanmu for someone special enough to look at it. Dapat pahala lagi.

Cadangan:
Pakai tudung labuh sampai orang ingatkan kita gemuk padahal...
Pakai niqab sampai orang ingatkan muka kita hodoh gila padahal...
Pakai baju saiz besar sikit sampai orang ingatkan shape kita teruk padahal...


Jadi be yourself, not others. Tingkatkan keyakinan dirimu. No one is perfect enough to be you. You're beautiful.

Ana takdelah baik mana sampai rasa tak layak nak tegur orang. Tapi ana selalu berusaha menjurus kearah itu. Nak terima ke tak belakang kira, at least ana bagitau. Buang yang keruh ambil yang jernih.

Wasalam.

No job!

For the time being, ana tanam anggur aka pengganggur so, tidur is my part time job now. Habis lingkaran gelap muncul kat mata ana, Oh my Allah! Persis panda di negara China sana. Well, gunalah Garnier light BB eye-roll on *bullshit. Kawan ana cakap takde beza. Commercial value only. 

By the way, ana tengah cari blog or apa2 untuk dibaca. Maybe short stories. Nak beli buku, tapi ana tak suka baca words yang berjela2 panjangnya and ana bukanlah anak orang kaya yang boleh beli buku novel macam2 yang super duper mahalnya. Frankly speaking, I hate reading. Finelah kepada sesiapa yang nak lecture kat ana bahawasanya membaca itu jambatan ilmu and bla bla bla, but the fact still cannot be change. Ini sekadar menghabiskan masa ana. Sesiapa yang ada link ke apa ke, please share.

Lagi satu, ana ada some mission sementara tunggu masuk universiti nanti. Buat hafalan tapi sikit2 jelah, I'll just try my best. Ambil kelas jahitan tapi maybe bukan sekarang sebab umi busy dengan mesyuarat sekolah bagai, biasalah guru sekolah kerajaan. Ana ingatkan guru ni mengajar je, tapi sekarang they've become the clerk, the supervisor, the writer and all the the the. The worst part of it is, the payment is just the same. May Allah just bless their work and give all the hikmah behind it. Amin. Then, jadi chef pastri, emm. Buat kek secret recipe maybe. Atau gula2 macam kat Famous 'Amos yang nampak sangat sedap. Colouring much. And and, huh, apa2 jelah. Ana betul2 boring and terasa takde life sekarang.

Umi tak bagi kerja and abuya tak bagi ambil lesen.
I just wish I know the hikmah behind it. 

Memory

Nothing to do
Nothing to say
only kisses and goodbye

What happen just happen
let it be just memory
but the sweetest one

let history become boundary
let future become a journey

Never look back
cry over a split milk
Just mend the bond
that once strong

Or..
maybe just a peek
on someone who special enough
to be in your mind
to delight your heart.

Cruel world

 Trying to step forward and face the cruel world, alone. It giving me goose bump. The hot sun burning my fat effectively, making the sweat running down through my cheek. I swiped it with Mr Handkerchief given by someone.

 I looked around, he is nowhere to be found. I stared at the clock. The time is ticking eerily. He was supposed to be here at 11.00 o'clock sharp. My feet aches with all the walking down the sun and wandering around the place, waiting for him. I walked to the bench nearby to relieve the pain on my feet. What taking that guy so long?, I mumbled myself. He should be here to support me. Well, it is my first day of interview. Then, a ferocious looking lady creaking that door, called my name. I startled. I am not ready yet. My legs trembling and shaking, as if the building was shaking tremendously. Suddenly, all my files fell down from my grip. I woke up from my delirium and pick up everything. I walked to the door. Closing the door while searching for him, silently. Disappointed, he still was not there. 

My cruel world of working will start next week as my new boss said to me. At least, I can support my life with him after this with my monthly salary. I saw him, wandered around incoherently. He streaked and almost jump off when he saw me.  I walked to him and whispered it all went well. He smiled and relieved. He whispered to me, I am sorry. My anger suddenly lost in the thin air. Well, it is the first time he was late.


Wo wo. Ana minta maaf untuk cerita tu. Tetiba tertulis. Masa terfikir nak kerja semua tu last2, tercipta satu cerita. Tu je.

Wasalam.

20.12.2012

Assalamualaikum,

Okay, something happen. So blog update time!

Tarikh keramat 20.12.2012, tarikh keramat untuk buat jamuan abk '95 ke Time Square. Pergi bertolak ke KTM Shah Alam pukul 9.15, yang sepatutnya pukul 9.00. Tak banyak beza pun, tapi sebab ada yang datang pukul 7.00 so everyone macam marah ana, sebab lambat. haih. Nasib badan. Then, tunggu plak guys tiga orang, iaitu Qayyum, Pele, and Adib. Last2 pukul 11.00 baru naik ktm. Puih! Yang tak datang ialah, ainaaffina, izzah and Jiha. :"(

 Dah naik monorel yang bapak dia jauh. Stop ke Imbi. Off to go to Cosmo World. Beli tiket untuk 21 orang beb! Semua keluarkan ic, warganegara dapat discount, and then Heroine dengan darling pergi bayar. Kemudian kami makan di Kenny Rogers Rooster. Makan jerlah apa yang ada. Behind the scene pembayaran tu, sebenarnya duit tak cukup. Lupa nak kira tax, haha. Sapa entah guys yang top up kan, then kami pun bayar balik kat dia.

Part yang paling best gila, main!! Mula2 Faiz suruh main DNA mixer tu, So naiklah. Amik mu, pusing2 kami. Titik hitam bagi Qayyum and Fadiey. Pening. Salahlah naik benda tu dulu. Then, naik yang pusing2 tu. Extreme. Then naik benda yang tinggi gila tu, part Pele paling tak tahan. Masa ni, Qayyum dah tak boleh dah. Then, one and only, benda alah kapak, pusing 360 darjah tu. Pergh yang tu memang terbaik!! Suka gila ana. Guys dengan ana dengan Heroine je naik. Then, naik Roller Coster, duduk barisan depan sekali dengan Aina'a. Faiz dengan Raziq cakap kitorang amik tempat diorang. Well, first come, first serve. Memang seriously ana suka duduk depan. Kemudian, masuk rumah hantu. Lagi sekali, guys dengan heroine, and me je masuk. RM 9 puff. Bosan. Tapi ada, satu part tu memang best. Masa tu Adib dengan Faiz main2 kat dalam tu, tetiba shoo, ada benda putih terbang. Faiz mengelabah menjerit terkejut sampai terlompat, tak silap. Lawak gila time tu. Sebab dia duduk betul2 kat tempat benda tu terbang. Yang lain, superb bosan.

Then, sampailah waktunya. Then, adalah sebab2 tertentu, ana, Laici, Insyi and aliya lambat. Heroine kesian, tunggu kami. Haha. Lepas tu part naik monorel. Pergh! padat and mampat. Macam tin sardin. Seriously, sampai pak cik jaga tu, tolak2 suruh muatkan. Haih. Then, monorel kedua, semua masuk. Then tetiba terlihat aina'a sorang2 kat luar, tak muat. Ana pun keluarlah. Kesian dia sorang2. Tunggu monorel seterusnya. Still, macam sardin. So terpaksa jadi sardin cap ayam jap. the next station, terus sikit orang. Tetiba, nampak Adib kat sebelah kiri monorel tu, dia pun tertinggal kut. Then, bila sampai, nampaklah semua orang tengah tunggu kitorang. Jyeah!

.kami yang tertinggal.

Then, balik ke ktm. Amilia and Fadiey dah balik lama dah. Dorang duduk kat Serdang. Then, Raziq dah turun kat stesen sebelum Shah Alam, then Syida kat Batu Tiga. Bila dah sampai kat stesen kitorang, sorang2 balik. Tinggal nadiah, Insyi, ana and Faiz. Then, ana dengan nadiah balik. Tinggal Insyi dengan Faiz. Baguslah dua2 duduk Puchong. Kesian tengok dorang. Tak tahu balik kul berapa.

Tapi, memang banyak first time scene hari tu. Banyak gila. Happy most of it. Thanks korang for making my day.

Thank you budak abk '95!!!

Horror truth.

I'm sorry, I dont have the strength to force you. Even if I do, will you hear what I'm saying?

People wear this and that. Some too tight, some too short. The worst part of it, they your friends. Wait, what?!

 One day, after we have gone to different school, follows our heart desire. Hope just for the best for everyone. We made an oath; even how far we can be, we're always have this strong invincible bond- ukhuwah. Our company is just tears and sweet memories to our not so bright new school.

.Facebook have been created.

Hey, I know you. Add friend button is click. After a few days. You accepted my friend request. Gee, I guess Facebook has something good after all. I miss you a lot, friend. Picture are shown on my news feed. When the time your name come, I stopped. Shockingly, I asked. Where's your scarf? The one that cover your hair, your aurah.

.You reset to silent mode.
After few hours
.Unfriend button was click.

After all this years, I've been missing you but, you're not. Pathetic. That's me. For not knowing you, only know who you used to be. I'm sad.

From that day onward, I realize.
You dont really understand what you wear, but believe me; Islam is not a burden but a bless.
sometimes you just need to force yourself before ikhlas grows deep in your heart.

Always pray for you,

Your friend.

Wasalam.

Doa sakit

Assalamualaikum,

Hai semua, I'm back business. Actually, ana sakit beberapa hari ini, bad. Kadang2 okey, kadang2 tak. Let just hope I can have ni'mah in health. No no, I hope, we all have it. Kalau sakit pun anggap jelah ia sebagai kifarah dosa. Sentiasa ada hikmah kan?

Oh yes, I hope doa ni boleh membantu diri kita dalam menghadapi apa jenis penyakit. InsyaAllah.

So that's it then. I should be going.

Wasalam.

memori klasik

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

2011, masuk sekolah 18 hebat. Ana start kenal orang2 18. Budak abk terutamanya. Fadiey, Aina'a, Sue, Pidah, Baby, Ainaaffina, Laici, Syiq2, Insyi Jieha, Mel, Syida, Aliya, Heroine, Atiqah, Syakila, Nadiah, Izzah. All 18 beautiful girls in abk. Guys? Yup kena declare dorang gak. Dorang still part of the team right~ Qayyum, Pele, Faiz, then masuk orang tua skit; Abang Rajik and Abang Adib. *gedik

Kitorang melengkapi antara satu sama lain. Tak sempurna buatkan kami menjadi semakin sempurna bersama. Teringat memori klasik kita bersama. Masa peperiksaan, jumpa. Duduk belakang ana. Ahaha. Then, boleh plak jadi rapat. That's a memory.

Girls yang paling rapat dengan ana memula Sue, then heroine. Then, aina'a, then insyi, then laici, then aliya, then, syiq2, orang yang sangat unik bagi ana, then teman gaduh ana jieha yang sebenarnya sangat caring. Then, atiqah. Ingat lagi dia selalu pukul ana, berkat ajaran rakan sebelah dia Heroine. Semua bebudak luar, kecuali aina'a and Sue. Mereka je budak asrama yang rapat dengan kitorang. Budak luar adalah komuniti makan roti canai malik. Caring antara satu sama lain and nothing can't stop us from being awesome. Jurang diantara kita akan sentiasa ada jika kita tak dapat menerima kelemahan kelebihan masing2. 

 Budak laki; tak sangka boleh rapat dengan mereka, mungkin sebab duduk belakang dorang kut. Qayyum pun bekas jiran ana, pele jenis peramah, Faiz memang duduk depan ana betul-betul, raziq atas sebab2 tertentu, adib je ana janggal skitlah dengan dia, mungkin sebab jarak umur yang jauh, probably.

Memori di 18 Hebat. The best and the worst. All in my mind and never will be forgotten.

May our friendship always fill with barakah and rahmah, now and forever.

wasalam.

Lepasan SPM.

Assalamualaikum,

Anybody? Hello? I want to cry, hug me please.

I wish I have the power to freeze time up. I miss my friends, boy, they really made my day. Lepas SPM, thought that I'll be okay. No, I'm still not strong enough to be like that. The only thing I've improved in is; hold my tears. The most sad time plak apabila lihat kawan-kawan MB pergi, one by one. Heroine, nadjirah, insyi, laici, aini, syakir, Jaiho... I'm almost the last person to leave. That time plak dengar suara MH for the last time, saying; he's leaving. Tak sanggup nak pandang muka dia, sedih meresap dalam diri. Sempat tengok sekilas and then, hati rasa berat. Last2, I miss the only chance I have. MB tengok kereta dia dari belakang, sampai hilang dari pandangan. I'm gonna miss everything. Having you in my memory is the best part of my life.