Matrikulasi

Assalamualaikum,

Howloo evrybody~ miss me? Say it out loud and no need to mumble it. Stahp MB! -.- okay okay. nak cakap sedikit di sini. I'm announcing I've got tawaran matriks di Johor. Yeay! MB rasa okey je sebab pernah pergi situ. Kak sue dapat situ dulu. and tempat tu dikira okeylah gak. So-so. FYI too, my family abk ramai yang dapat kat Johor. Lagi sekali, yeay! Actually, budak 18 ramai gak dapat situ. Hmm, tetiba...rasa tak nak plak pergi situ. I mean, rasa macam tak dapat pengalaman baru gitulah. Dapat kawan baru. Shaddap MB. Cakap jelah suka *tutup muka. Mungkin budak 18 adalah kawan yang terbaik untuk MB, betui dok? And for someone info, crush dia pun dapat kat sana. Untunglah. Semoga korang ada jodoh XD.

Actually I was expecting to take action after result UPU dah keluar. But then fikir balik, kang terlupa, expired date dah sampai ke, so I decided to accept tawaran matriks tu. Tak tahu lagi pergi ke tak. Aliya, my best freng forebe tu pun ajak pergi matriks. Boleh jadi BFF kat sana. One more time yeay! Laici, bdk plkn ni hmm dia tak tahu dapat kat mana. Nak check kang, dah mengganggu privasi. Ntah ntah tuan punya badan pun tak tengok lagi. Rindu plak kat dia :') kat aliya, kat heroine, kat insyi, kat ainaa, kat aten, kat dekat...dekat...okay stop nak nangis. Enough with the tears, gal!

BTW, MB ada masuk aktiviti lepasan SPM kut. Indoor campur outdoor. Macam best je. So MB dengan ainaa ada daftar. Kalau MB takde buat apa-apa kat FB and twitter pada 10-12 mei tu maksudnya pergi kem la tu. Akhirnya, aktiviti!!!

MB harap yang kita-kita semua dapat pilih tempat yang terbaik untuk sambung belajar.

Beautiful

Assalamualaikum,

hey hey uolls, for all muslimah outside there! No matter how people judge your cloth, your tudung, your style, YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL. Believe me, I've found some of them, a group of females, mocking the way I look. The length of my tudung especially. I was offended that time. Feeling like I'm not doing the right thing. Every time they saw me, dorang panggil MB 'ustazah'. MB rasa macam apa salah MB. Then, MB sedar yang apa yang MB buat betul. Bukan buat dosa pun. Last-last, MB bagitau "apa salahnya pakai macam ni? Habis ko punya tak cukup kain?" Dorang terus senyap. Masa tu marah punya pasal, terhambur segala keayuan diri *baling selipar.

MB salah sebab marah dorang. MB sepatutnya cakap kat dorang, make things clear between us. Mungkin dorang betul-betul tak tahu apa yang betul. But there's sometime where we can lost in the middle of the conversation like I did. MB sangatlah menyesal. Walaupun masa tu rasa best sebab dorang senyap, tu amatlah XD tapi sekarang MB tau, I used the wrong way.

Enough of this topic, hmm babai

Saya doakan muslimin muslimat faham mengenai Islam dan bukan sekadar pada kad pengenalan, mencari hidayah Taufiq Allah, in sya Allah. Yang terbaik untuk kita.

wasalam.

JPA interview

Assalamualaikum,

So so so, guess what apa ada hari ni? kay, korang nampak tajuk -.- So itulah topik hari ni xD kay kay. To the topic, tempatnya kat uitm lendu melaka. You know? the haunted2 gitu lah tempatnya macam orang cakap. Stahp with this naikkan bulu roma story.

Problem of the day, my dad demam. So, waktu pergi pun problem lah. Lambat sikit. I was suppose to be there by 8.30. Tapi sampai sana puku 9, atas sebab2 tertentu *flip meja. Dah sampai tu, daftar, terus suruh masuk dalam group. Hmm berlaku begitu pantas. This group of six person pun masuk dalam tempat interview tu. Kay. Kena speaking in english dalam tu. MB pun okay, boleh kut. Sekali kena bincang pasal 'how to enhance self belonging from the picture' *picture of agong . I was like, apa benda masalah ni!? Dahlah in english, kalau melayu pandai kantoi sikit kot. Otak masa tu blank. Nasib baik masa tu in group. puih. Barulah dapat sikit ura2 apa benda dia nak~ hmm kay. Waktu first2 tu kena sound sebab tak participate, padahal MB ada je cakap. Dah lepas~ lek lu.

Sesi kedua, kitorang ditanya pendapat tentang isu-isu semasa. Masa tu kena cakap BM and few english questions. Hmm masa tu boleh kut. All my answer kedengaran negatif. Apa2 jelah. Then sesi akhir tu, kena bincang pasal PATI berleluasa kat negara kita. masa tu memang superb merepek. Idk how I manage to do it. Tapi masa tu confident tu dah ada ah. And then, habislah sesi interview tu. and and thanks to heroine sebab ingat pasal MB punya interview, and she wish masa MB tengah kena interview tu kay -.-

Well, just best of luck to me and everyone yang amik interview gak! Ingat kalau rezeki, jatuh dari langit pun possible kay~ 

Wasalam

Buka pekung di dada lulz

Assalamualaikum,

everybody, I'm very sad right now. Super sad. I mean, MB kan terlepass mara scholarship padahal MB dah bukak laman dia. I was like, I've open it like thousand times, not just once. Tapi memang tak terbuka hati langsung nak mohon. Cam apa je. I.....argh!!! And my friend sume cam pergi interview dia blablabla sume. Well, I'm not jealous in fact I wish the best for you all and may you can study abroad and send me some postcards xD..act, cuma sedih tak dapat nak pergi bersama . Side by side, have the thrilled feeling together, saying the same topic and have someone who can understand how you feel like. kay *flip meja.

Sorry that you've read something nonsense. I kept that for sometimes and I need to really let it out...hmm. thanks for reading by the way. And, wish me luck guys untuk JPA, at least I've got the opportunity. May Allah bless you and me with rahmat and barakah. amin.

I've should known that only Allah knows what's best for me and never deny the fact. In fact, Allah maha mengetahui. :')

The time has come

Assalamualaikum,

MB cuma nak khabarkan something; I've got interview JPA. Yeay! Sedih masa tu, MARA MB terlepas. Satu hari je lambat *flip meja bertubi-tubi* Masa tu umi down gila. I'm not exaggerating but she's truly down that time, like seriously emm. It was like the world is going to end. haha macam umi yang nak pergi pulak kan. Well, that's a horror truth xD Well, at least terubat sikit luka umi, kay umi je yang pikir sangat benda ni. hmm. Mungkin MB tak nak harap sangat. Last moment MB mengharap sangat, I ended up stressful and didn't felt any hope on life anymore. Tenuk! haha. Kay, what's done is done, toksah ungkit perkara lama -.- kihkihkih okey2 kita pikir perkara baru ni. Temuduga JPA yeay! Mungkin tak patut gembira sangat sebab interview je. tapi, ini adalah kali pertama mendapat surat tertulis nama saya di situ xD

It was like; AINUL MARDHIAH BINTI ABDUL RAHIM. and I was like, so, it's begin *simpulkan tangan ahaha hmm lulz. Just pray for me in the interview guys. Love ya! Okey ayat tunggang terbalik dah kat otak. Harap faham eh~ babai

Semoga MB dipertemukan dengan kawan-kawan yang baik kat tempat MB nak sambung belajar. Risau iman tak kuat :\

crap

Assalamualaikum,

Semua orang please! the time has come! Keputusan universiti nanti. belum lagi act. saja gelabah. I just can't imagine the vague thought in future. Will I be a successful muslimah? Will I have the will power to stand out for my right in having my way of life? Will my iman continues to rise? If it reduces, will it bear for my lust and desire wishes? I'm so confused and scared. I don't have trust on myself, my iman. Seriously. I just wish I...hmm. Saya nak pergi overseas, if I've got the chance la. I'm okay if it's not. I know it's the very best for me from Allah. I'm to scare that I talking crap right now. Sorry. But, I love you, umi abuya. agaga *baling bunga*

Saya bangga dengan my parents for making me who I am now, I love you! I hope they feel the same way :')

thanks for reading my craps.

grr

Assalamualaikum,

hello everybody. hmm, the topic for today is, anger. Just a few hours ago, I've experienced someone's anger. I mean, that particular person's anger cause something to me, mentally. It really not awesome and very frustrating. But, well you don't really understand, do you? So let make it like this, don't make people pissed of because of your anger. Isn't that kind of selfish? because you have a bad day, doesn't mean you have the  right to give it to people. Sabar, ainul, sabar. I tell you what, you can have it your way if and only if, you want to lose the people around you. Siapa suka orang yang suka marah? hang suka ka? idok kang? So, toksah lah kalutkan people's mind as if you're the one who gives us lifes. 

kalau marah, duduk kalau tengah berdiri. baring kalau tengah duduk. amik wuduk. Syaitan bersorak-sorak atas kepala hang, joget-joget. Have it your way to manage your anger, just don't make people angry with you. to much anger to be release. Kalau ya pun, lepaskan lah aura kegembiraan. Senyum itu sedekah, kan? Smile.

Jangan nak harapkan akhirat, dunia pun orang dah tak suka. 

So? Make a change. In sya Allah success di situ.

More keshing keshing

Assalamualaikum,

Alhamdulillah, rezeki mencurah selepas SPM ni. MasyaAllah. Bukan takat seratus dua hengget je, banyak gaklah. Thanks to my aunties, uncles and also sekolah. And and nak jadi ceritanya, tadi pun dapat. Dari Adun pru tah pape nama dia. Hmm. So, apa lagi. dah dapat jemputan, siap-siap pakai baju kurung untuk majlis formal ni, padahal semua pakai sakai je saya tengok *baling selipar. Dah sampai tu kat dewan auditorium seksyen 14 sana, ternampak lah si kawan-kawan 18, yang comei-comei dan hensem-hensem belaka. Laki ada 3-4 orang je. perempuan lah ada belasan gaklah. Sampai YB pun cakap perempuan ramai berjaya. *angkat hidung. Alhamdulillah. Lagi satu cerita tah pape masa nak amik sijil. Masa tu, dorang tengah bising. Then, orang tu panggil saya. Saya dengar belakang je rahim then saya dah gabra, dia panggil sapa. Sume tak dengar. Last-last dia panggil orang lain. Haha, so kiranya bertuah lah dipanggil dua kali *flip tudung. Paling tak tahan, masa tangkap gambar. Mak aina semangat suruh cakap 18 hebat. Then, semua 18 HEBAT! YB and the gang terkejut. haha. awesome part tu. awesome. Hmm. best best. Semoga korang dapat apa yang korang nak. tapi selalu ingat, Allah hanya memberi apa yang terbaik. Kita perlu redha nad think positive.

May Allah bless you all. I'll support whatever that's good for you, my friends. I really do :')

IPTA

Assalamualaikum,

okay, sekarang SPM result dah lapuk, pin upu dah basi, permohonan upu dah berabad. Now, the moment we've been waiting for. The thrilled moment untuk budak lepasan SPM yang sudah mengharungi segala susah payah belajar macam nak gila semasa periksa SPM. tipu lah~ Saya rasa saya tak belajar sangat pun. bukan nak cakap saya pandai, saya cuma nak cakap saya rasa keputusan saya tu orang lain punya. okay, cerita lapuk. Momen tersebut ialah; kemasukan ke IPTA/IPTS pilihan hati. Yeay! Zaman orang dewasa! Okay, tak best *baling selipar

Actually, keputusan kemasukan IPTA keluar 21 may 2013. Kalau tak silap lah. And for those yang ada mintak Matriks macam I, minggu kelima selepas keluar result. Hmm hmm. The time has come you guys. And and I didn't even prepare myself for that XD I'll miss home, no doubt. But I'm still eagerly wait for that moment -.-

The world of IPTA's, please be nice to me. I'm a new comer :)

Maka 2013

Assalamualaikum,

semalam ada MAKA 2013. MAKA ni maksudnya Majlis Anugerah Kecemerlangan Akedemik. Trololo, panjang tu. Mulanya actually 7 lebih gitu, tapi saya datang pukui 9 lebih. My mom said, princess is never late, people's who come early *baling selipar* Masa sampai tu ada junior pengawas dulu greet me, amirah damia dengan batrisyia. Terharu kerana mereka masih ingat diri ini :') isk isk. Then, masuk cam okaylah tengah ucapan. Cam biasa, susunan dia sebenarnya campur laki perempuan but then sapa nak ikut -.- oh yeah! so sapa cepat dia dapat. Macam boys dapat vip place sebelah kipas. untong. then, berasak-asak lah saya nak duduk tengah-tengah. Duduklah saya bersama my friends yang sekelas abk dulu. Bogushippo uolls. then exchange num. almaklumlah sudah berhenpon. Time nak amik sijil tu, kena beratur diluar. Then crush tegur aww puih puih. Dah sampai turn tu amik sijil, saya tak pandang camera like :C geram ah, nak ulang balik.  Kami dapat RM 70, safely disimpan untuk kegunaan future yeay! Then sesi tangkap gambar ah awesome. Ada bayangan kelabu di belakang. Dia diri je kat situ, my lil sis nampak. Sempatlah snap-snap dengan crush and crush orang tu. Tangan dah macam mayat, menggigil kesejukan. Awkward moment orang-orang baju pink tengok sengih-sengih. kay -.- Sebelum balik dia ada pandang dewan sekilas...sedih. Then terasa sebak nak pisah dengan everybody. sob...sob *hembus hingus* jumpa gak sharifah maryam and khadijah. sempat tangkap gambar.

Babai semua, wasalam.

I just wish we will never be apart from each other but...it may be a good start to have new friends. Harap kawan-kawan baru se-awesome uolls gak :')

the truth

For you and me. No ones want to be lied and fell betrayed. So, it's just worth to apply in our life. Please and thank you. smile

Milik-Nya

"It is very strange that Allah has other creations beside you, while you don’t have a Rabb besides Him. However, He looks after you as if He has no creation besides you, while you serve Him as if you have other Gods besides Him.” [Imam Ar-Razi (R.A)]"

Astaghfirullah. Selama ini Allah sentiasa menjaga kita. Allah sentiasa memberi kita kesenangan, tapi kita buta hati. Hati kita tidak nampak perkara itu. Berasa senang dengan segala nikmat yang diberikan tetapi berasa duka kala dihimpit kesusahan. Kita tidak sedar bahawa kesusahan juga merupakan satu nikmat. Tidak pernah terpikir untuk bersyukurkah kita?

Kita adalah hamba Allah. Bukan hamba dunia. Keseronokan dunia ini sementara. Begitu mengasyikkan. Tetapi sedarkah kita bahawa ia milik-Nya. Jika Allah mampu memberi keseronokan di dunia, tidakkah Allah mampu memberi balasan yang lebih baik di akhirat kelak? Sesungguhnya Allah maha besar dan maha berkuasa. Mend the bond between you and Allah

Important note: Janganlah sampai nikmat kita berupa Istidraj, Nauzubillah.

parents

Assalamualaikum,

aduh, terasa sesak kepala otak, pening-pening lalat dah I *sady* nak jadi ceritanya my parents nak sangat saya pergi overseas. Dorang dah macam entah, no words can describe best. At first, apply lah sana sini. Bepuluh-puluh borang saya dah isi, kay tipu. Saya dah rasa malaslah dengan semua benda ni. Macam mana entah saya rasa nak termuntah dengar umi asyik cakap pasal biasiswa bagai ni. Yeah, I know, tak baik melawan cakap ibu, bla bla bla. Tapi, saya betul-betul stressed out because of duduk depan komputer isi tu isi ni and lagi-lagi bila tak tahu nak isi apa, tapi nak hantar cepat-cepat adui. Well, now I know how is it feel to be an office girl, lolz.

Yang tak tahan lagi, umi bersemangat bila benda biasiswa tu dah expired. Masa tu umi marah-marahlah sebab dah datang kat tempat tu and then dia cakap dah tutup. *imagining umi baling selipar* lulz sehari sebelum umi datang. Nampak tak, rezeki di situ tiada. Hmpph, apa-apa jelah. Saya pun dah fed up, umi pun dah aware pasal tu. So, may this borang will be the last of them.

Dear Allah, is this the sign for me, not to go overseas? You know what's best for me, and so I will be grateful for all the thing You've given. Thank you, Allah.

Umi, Abuya, I'm sorry for disappointing both of you. I really am.