selamat hari tua

Assalamualaikum,

dam dam dam. semalam kitorang pegi sunway sebab najla nak main skate. almaklumlah, belated befday girl. befday abang gak. so, pegi situ. somehow abuya and umi menggelabah sebab sunway is a very big place for them, lagi satu nak cari surau, ya Allah, macam apa je pusing-pusing liddat. haha. comel pula bila ingat balik. And, sale sale sale everywhere I tell ya. saya beli jacket buy one free one kat Giordano. ya Allah. saya rasa puas gila even though mahal cam abcdefg. 116 divide by two. sebab satu tu 116 en. saya macam pikir. stop beli cheap stake semua ni and start simpan duit untuk beli benda mahal. tahan lama dan selesa.

I probably say, I have sort of high taste, haha poyo. berkenan dengan benda mahal je. tak sanggup lagi nak tunggu tunggu duit banyak. sekarang misi ialah, simpan duit, simpan dan simpan. and then round round mall untuk cari sale. yosh!! go me~ hew hew. lagi satu, saya tengah tunggu kawan saya balik ni so kitorang boleh berkaramba bersama sama wehooo. cepatlah balik woi. gua tak sabar dah ni.

balik ke cerita sunway, umi and abuya tak berkenan langsung dengan tempat tu. wahaha. alang-alang wish befday girl tak kesampaian, buat apa nak stay lagi. kitorang pegi sunway untuk beli cinnabon and jacket. aje. so off we go to masalam then. nak makan. najla cakap dia nak makan steak. so windmill we go. dorang pilih steak. umi, abang dengan najla. saya pilih set. so saya ada salad+prawn, soup seafood, lamb+chicken with chips and veggies, ice-cream with jelly, and ice lemon tea. dorang dapat steak je. hahahahahaha guess what, sama harga. abang cakap, ni befday sape ni? sape suruh pilih tu? bila dessert datang, najla cam, nakkkk. so saya bagi dia, even though saya nak. paham tak sekarang muka kesian dia menang.

what ever.

p/s: Selamat hari jadi najla. selamat hari jadi abang. May Allah bless you.

Wasalam

shopping

Assalamualaikum,

semalam saya pergi berkaramba sikit dengan budak imtiyaz. ada lah jugak unknown girls yang follow. tasya, ili, kpah, azma, athirah, aliya adik aliya; aisyah, sepupu kpah. a girls day out liddat. our destination is Times square muhahaha. apa lagi shopping lah. keluarkan duit and there you go, berkaramba sama sama. the goods i tell ya, murah rah rah. where can u get a cloth for rm10. skirt for rm29. but yeah, kualiti tolak tepi lah ahaha. maybe for this moment I just need to get quantity more than quality. when the time comes, habislah semua muhahaha.

pagi tu saya gerak pukul 9 coz aisyah nak gi keje. kemudian, dorang sampai pukul 10 liddat. then, naik ktm, tunggu kat mc'd. tunggu azma jap. dah ada semua, terus gerak ke monorel. boleh dikatakan kitorang bertuah sebab tak ramai sangat masa tu, mampu bernafas gaklah. then, naik satu dua tingkat, naik lagi dan turun, solat, sambung balik, then balik. saya beli satu jaket, satu baju, satu macam half baju, satu kain.

masa balik tu, kitorang nak masuk ktm. ada sorang laki buta terus jalan. depan dia kosong. ada laki nampak dia gak tapi dia jauh. walaupun saya serba salah nak pegang dia, tapi saya fikir takkan nak biarkan dia jatuh. so, saya tarik dia, tolak dia slow slow ketepi, then, laki tadi tarik dia untuk masuk sekali. saya pun ke koc wanita. muhehehe.

masa untuk muhasabah diri:
kita ada pancaindera yang cukup. ada semua benda. makan cukup. tidur cukup. tapi kita memilih untuk tidak mencukupi. kita tamak. saya sendiri. tak ingat dunia masa shopping. walaupun saya dah cukup semua benda. Ya Allah. last last saya menyesal. saya beli lebih dari apa saya nak. me is a sad person.

so that's it.
wasalam

tiga

Assalamualaikum,

well that's a view from my house in palam. Pretty isnt it? I bet the people live upstairs and above and above must having a lot breath taking pictures. hehe. Subhanallah. uh uh. new flash for today. kelab usahawan muda saya kena bubar. miss tu cakap dengan dingin nya. i was expecting something yet not that kind of news. she said no worries. ur mark will be full and you get what u needed, thats it babai. and then she closes the meeting with an emphasizing phrase like kelab dibubarkan. saya macam somehow not that quite shock sebab kawan saya seolah-olah telah memberikan hint impression miss. yelah. dengan kedatangan seciput. kerjasama pulak, macam hambar. actually, nak salahkan sesape pun sume sama-sama salah. pengerusi kitorang baik, berdedikasi, sempoi like that. somehow there's misunderstanding between he and her and so, nothing can do much. i dont know how she felt and what she have been through. so, i just need to keep my mouth shut and try not to talk bad about her. she has her reason. positive~

and then, i officially resigned from being an assistant class rep. saya terasa gila dengan sam. dia cakap macam mana tau, cakap nak resign. and then macam perli-perli semua. padahal saya kesian dengan dia. sebab dia tak nak saya serahkan kerja kat new assistant yang saya pilih. mungkin salah saya sebab pilih tanpa tengok apa yang dia nak. i mean macam on sided choice. and then dia cakap lebih baik dia keje sorang. saya pun aiya, apa ni. serba salah tau tak. bila nak hantar kerja, dia cakap tak payah tolong. saya pun serba salah lagi. but somehow i didnt feel like being appreciate for my effort. maybe what he said is a frigging truth i dont want to accept. so, apa kata saya just let go and accept the fact. kemudian, dia cakap pasal apa benda tah kitorang lalui sebelum ni hahahahaha. gedik wei. sebagai bekas assistant dia, saya ucapkan semoga berjaya untuk mengharungi segalanya sam!!

p/s: apa-apa yang berlaku, keep moving forward and excel~ go me go!!!

nombor dua

Assalamualaikum,

oh my gosh oh my gosh!! Im counting days, guys. Lagi 4 hari dan kurang and saya boleh balik. muhahahaha. I miss my house tahap infiniti. roommate saya mungkin tak rasa kehangatan dia sebab setiap minggu dia balik. Le me always talking to the wall, alone. Whatsoever. I just need to bear just this 4 days, go me go!!

lagi satu nak cakap pasal crush but then macam nothing much to say. mungkin ada progress tapi macam hambar je. look look like that sebab dua-dua pemalu ptuih. tapi en dia en macam mana nak cakap. dia kan ada kawan perempuan semua en. boleh pulak kawan dia pukul dia. pak! like that. as if it's a normal thing to do. like seriously. me jealous. not because I wanted to do that, HARAM you! haha. tapi yelah, saya sendiri kalau betul-betul ada relationship dengan someone, kalau boleh taknak lah my special person tu rapat, bertepuk tampar dengan other girl. tergugat I. lagi-lagi macam semua gegirls cam hot gila and whatsoever definition. haiyah. tapi, takat ni macam crush crush like that je. bak kata ustazah; fitrah manusia suka orang. tapi (matlamat tidak pernah meghalalkan cara!!) lagipun saya takut nak serious dengan orang unless dia betul-betul dah jumpa parents semua. ahaks. pretending to be matured.

one more thing, masa tu saya ada post kat fb. alang-alang ada broadband baru ni kan~ i was giving myself a moral support, more like talking to myself. saya fikir macam saja jelah nak tulis sebab stress sangat. ended up, unexpectedly, ramai komen wishing me gud luck. kawan-kawan dan keluarga. I was so touched. kita tak sedar, orang ingat kita. even doakan kita, dalam diam. maka, saya ingin menyelitkan kata nasihat di sini. doakan orang lain, especially sahabat kita sebab satu, doa tu mustajab, dua, doa tu kena kat kita jugak. tak ke untung tu? so selamat beramal.

jadi itu je. love and kisses. spread the love.

p/s: tadi teringat mamat hensem. macam mana lah dia sekarang?

episod 1

Assalamualaikum,

Saya fikir sem 2 ni macam dah rapat sikit dengan my classmates. haha. baru nak rapat. and then, nak pisah dah. takpelah. perpisahan bermaksud pertemuan baru. kemudian, saya tengah stres sebab keje elc saya ni. saya terus terang, susah saya nak keep doing on-line work. macamlah saya online selalu. dahlah internet ni ada had. lepas tu keje dia kena buat article based on article. ada apa benda tah cara dia. saya pikir esok baru pikir. wahahaha. me is procrastinating. i think that im missing my mom dad house. btw, atm rosak. sian ezzat temankan ke angsana, tengok-tengok atm rosak. ada duit sehengget je pulak tu. talking bout this, semalam saya ada beli makanan tapi lupa saya takde duit. sampai kaunter, masak. nasib baik ada sam. dia bagi lah duit. i saw man giggling behind me and i was like 'damn it'. malu tahap infiniti. sedih sangat sampai ada fikir nak balik. tapi pikir pasal bas. say babai lah rumah. so itu je cerita hari ni.

p/s: im so stressed up i can bite people cell by cell. hmmmm

Broadband on the go

Assalamualaikum,

Semalam saya kena marah dengan lecturer english saya, sekali lagi. Apa-apa jelah. The point is, I'll be using internet broadband, because of her. Saya takut tak dapat berkat dia and then my life ruin and then I can only pray that I can go 7 feet below the ground faster. Harga promosi dia 83 hengget. Saya rasa serba salah sebenarnya sebab nak kena mintak abuya duit dan sebagainya. Macamlah takde benda lain yang kena bayar. Macamlah abuya jenis cop duit. Macamlah duit tu turun dari langit macam hujan ribut. Okay. Stop. Saya kena cari penyelesaian dan bukan burukkan lagi keadaan. Untuk semua duit yang abuya telah laburkan pada saya, dengan ini saya akan cuba berusaha untuk menjadi anak yang baik dan taat dan bijak dan dapat kerja yang baik dan boleh bayar balik segala penat lelah Abuya. Ececeh. InsyaAllah. Pray for me uolls.

Task to do:

1. belajar rajin-rajin
2. manfatkan duit umi and abuya.
3. jangan boros
4. belajar
5. belajar
6. belajar
7. ........
8. usha crush..
9. ahaks

cakap pasal english, sekarang saya tak paham kerja yang madam kitorang nak. Jadi, saya cuma emm do nothing. Perhaps, waiting for the right time, or maybe get a reality slap from her. Pray for me please. So, tu jew. 

p/s: my crush sangat comel. k.

New??

Assalamualaikum,

Hello everyone. I feel very bad because I act like some western girl. Yes, Im racist and im a typical girl.Actually, I was repairing my english yang macam tungkang pecah. Sorry for the broken english everywhere hehe. Today I will be talking about my crush. muhahahaha. Since I have announce this thing, maybe this is not very official haha. I know this guy because we somehow has the same large group. Complicated to talk about the group system so lets just forget bout it, can we? Haaa, ya, from the first week we went to the same class, I saw him. Somehow, from almost 150 something, I saw him. Ya, woow right. He is tall, and has a very calm attitude. I never talked to him so somehow I just let my mind to go through the curiosity. Maybe he like to study. He didnt really like to talk. He doesnt argue for some petty conversation. He went to angsana only to eat, because rafflesia is too far to walk and somehow think that it is just a waste of energy and time. Acting like I have known him all years. dang it.

One day, I stared at him at the bus. And that's how it started.

Habits

Assalamulaikum,

It has been two weeks since I have moved into my life back. Actually, it's just barely a week. As before, my class starts at 8.30 in the morning and end at 4 to 6.30. But, my Thursday was a bit chaos because of the schedule. Misunderstanding here and there, and we're asasian is the one to blame. Sigh. Go blame that frigging timetable we were following! And then, I started as a good girl, yeah right. I'm working on my bad habit, that would be a big amount of loss if I continue doing so. Need to start study like a nerdy-geek, need to work on my muscle and burn fats (not really expecting to do so), start asking and stop keep everything in mind so long until it get dark and unseen. So you see, I have what it take to be a good student, just the effort is a bit lack right, so wish me luck everybody. One more thing, I'm starting to keep a distance from guys.

Did you know about ikhtilat? From what I understand, it was some kind of shield we need to protect, from the ajnabi. For instance, girl or guy who like to hangout with opposite sex tend to fall in love more and cheat. This is because it's our human nature where we attracted to ajnabi, and somehow make us realizes the world is big enough for hundred and thousand men and women, and you're wasting your time on a bloody guy?? That's what happen. Awkward moment happen too if somehow your ex-s become your somewhat new member of the family, in-laws, cousin's and what ever relation that happen to exist. You happen to be needing on communicating with them while realizing that you once have something special with that particular person, awkward~ So, to avoid things like this, how about we try on keeping our feelings to ourselves, and start avoiding bff ajnabi. It's simple yet so hard, Syaitan everywhere you see. Just good luck and may the right person come.

That's a bitsy bit of advice from me as a muslimah. Am not acting pious but somehow, it's just showing how I felt inside and not to self. hehe. Back to our topic, I need to work on my habit of best of luck to myself. Go Ainul go!!

Wasalam